when i was young, five or six, i had this friend. she told me she was her best friend, and i was so lonely i believed her. she was my first best friend, so whatever she said that friends did, i believed her. she was twelve at the time.
she told me that best friends play pretend. but the ‘pretend’ we played, she made me lie on the bed and take my shirt off, and she kissed me and things. by things, i mean, imagine a PG13 makeout session, except one person didn’t want it, at all. she only tried to put her hands down my pants once. i tried to make her stop, but she didn’t. i still have nightmares about it, and it was ten years ago. i have a panic attack whenever i try to think about it. 
my question is: does that constitute sexual abuse, or no? i know i need help, from a shrink or whatever, but i would feel so stupid if they told me that it wasn’t anything and i was overreacting.

OMG. :O I’m sorry for what happened. I mean, yeah it’s really horrible. I’ve had some situations like when I was a kid. And the worse part, is it’s with boys. I was like 5-7 that time. I was the only girl in the group. And I was forced too and that happened many times. I didn’t do anything about it. And I didn’t tell anybody cause I know that time that it wasn’t normal kids to do. But now, it was just a memory to me.

Tho, I’m not really sure if it’s already sexual abuse cause you’re both minors. And I’m not sure to that too. =/ Sorry. But yeah I think you should consult to a shrink. And maybe talk about it with a really close friend/best friend. I hope it’ll settle. <3